Just to be honest i really don't know what deserves me next. I don't know. My heart tells me to do it, but the fear.. I feel inside of me. I know the reason, but i really need to put that fear on my back and act like nothing is happening. I hate to feel this way. Maybe my insecurity is speaking inside of me. My answers of my questions are always " maybe" . I just want a simple yes or no. Why is that hard ? why ? Simplicity is so hard to have, or people make it complicate to have it ? I don't want to do the same mistakes, i just want to make in different way with different feeling. But i can't "push" anymore.